Day 9
Well, I didn't go through with my plan. But the fight's not over, I just have to try again. As many times as it takes.
Coming back from a setback
What do you do when you've failed? Try again. What do you do when you've failed many times over? Try again. But what if it's not working? Try a different approach. So let's see... what's the issue with my current system? I believe it's quite simple; not enough sleep, waking up late and spending my mornings giving in to my desires. I have to start making it a habit not to look at my phone for at least the first few hours of the day. Instead, do what's good for me. See, I've been tricked into thinking I want to stare at my phone, and I want to play video games, but actually, I want to eat breakfast, I want to plan for the day.
The day snowballs right from the start, so I should make the start of my day better and more structured. What's the most important factor to having a good morning? Having a restful and rejuvenating sleep. So really, the start of every day begins with what I do during the previous night. Basically, the most important parts of the day are at the start and the end. Sleep deprivation makes the whole day much harder than it would be, and a bad morning tends to lead to a bad day. It's as simple as that, yet it's easier said than done. By the end of the day, I have this tendency to reach out for easy dopamine. Staring at my phone, playing video games, jerking off, whatever it is, it's all a means to an end; temporary relief. And even when I tell myself I should sleep, and that this is bad for me, another part of me says "one more". One more, what a trap. It's never one more, there's always going to be another, and another, until the sun is already rising.
So what's the new plan? Simple. Start with working on the start and end of the day. If I get enough sleep and wake up early, that's already a huge win. If I'm able to go further and avoid my phone during the morning, cook and eat a nice breakfast, and plan out the day, that's even better. Once those habits become well-integrated into my daily routine, then I can move on to working on other things.
Alright, I'll let you know how the first night goes tomorrow!
