Day 19: What's up?
How's life been treating you? It's been going okay for me, I haven't been doing much other than going to the gym, doing pottery, smoking weed and gaming at home. There's this sense of an existential crisis coming up though, and I&
Day 18: Relax
Well, the semester's over. I can finally fully relax. Now I have my days free, and with so many options, I have to start narrowing them down and choose the right things. That beauty could be found anywhere. That was the line that kept playing in my head
Day 17: Back to the Roots
The main reason I started this blog was to put down into writing my chaotic brain; publicizing these thoughts were simply to keep myself motivated to continue doing this. So, today I'm going to put an excerpt from my personal journal, no filters. This was during a trip
Day 16: Restart
It's time to try again. Life has been all over the place and I haven't been doing enough in terms of actual work and deadlines. The problem is I keep telling myself I'll do this and I'll do that and then I
Day 15: What's Next?
It feels like every time I finish one thing, I'm asking myself what the next thing is. And it's tiring, sometimes I don't want a next thing. Some days I just want to laze around, relax and enjoy whatever pleasures I have. Unfortunately, that
Day 14: Off-days
Some days I feel super productive and amazing, and I feel like I can take on the world. Other days I feel like sleeping all day... why is this? It could just be the weather, or my immune system telling me to relax. I'm not sure what, but
Day 13: Lessons Learned
So, I've missed a few days of blogging again. Maybe I should make this less frequent as I feel doing it daily makes it harder to find out what to write about. I'll make a blog post around twice a week from now on. Anyways, what&
Day 12: Reparenting Myself
There are a lot of maladaptive coping mechanisms I seem to engage in when stressed. For a while there I was starting to feel good again, maybe because I stopped giving a shit about school. But now the consequences are hitting; I'm going to have to work hard
Day 11
Once again, I couldn't sleep on time. I think this time it was simply due to the use of cannabis. My relationship with cannabis has always been weird; sometimes it would be amazing, sometimes it would be the worst. I recall hearing people say that you should treat
Day 10: The start of a new arc
Well, the first day didn't go as planned. However, it did allow me to learn more about my bad habits and what causes me to fail. For one, the night before, I tend to think: "What's stopping me from sleeping in tomorrow", and this
Day 9
Well, I didn't go through with my plan. But the fight's not over, I just have to try again. As many times as it takes. Coming back from a setback What do you do when you've failed? Try again. What do you do when
Day 8
Life has been... weird. I've finally gotten some of my responsibilities delegated or moved to a later date so that I can have more time to relax. Yet I still don't feel relaxed because I spend my extra time just playing Deadlock or watching YouTube. I