Day 20: Picking back up

Hello. It's been a while. So, as per the last blog, I spent most of the summer doing nothing but smoking weed and relaxing. But now I'm seemingly stuck in this loop of doing nothing. Cannabis is an issue, partly because of how much I use it, but mainly because it simply staves off boredom. The thing is, boredom is good. Boredom is a reminder to do more, to explore the world, to be better. I need boredom if I want to improve my life. And now it's already the second semester of this school year, my last school year. Not much happened during the first semester. I went through my classes with minimal effort and got mediocre grades. But at this point, I don't really care about my marks anymore; I simply want to complete my degree and start working on other aspects of my life. The thing is, that's hard when I'm addicted to weed—addicted to the point that I don't really do much outside of smoking and playing games.

I already have some ideas of what I should do, which is mainly to quit weed for good. Mary Jane is not good for me. She may make me feel good; she may make me feel like everything is okay. But it's not. I still don't have a job, I've stopped most of my hobbies, and I'm barely getting by in school. If anything, I can come back to weed, but only when I feel stable and in a state where I can use it healthily. For now, avoid weed at all costs. I might even go the nuclear route and throw away all my weed paraphernalia. Hell, those things are easy triggers for me to smoke weed again.

The Plan for 2026

I will now lay out my plan for the next 6 months.

January

Priority: Quit weed for good. Cold turkey might be hard, so at least lower the use until you can fully stop. Try to stop using weed altogether by the end of the month. Work as hard as you can for the upcoming job interview (more details on that if anything good comes from it).

Secondary goals: Keep up with your school work and participate in your courses. Continue applying to jobs, and start therapy again. Start writing in this blog again.

February

Priority: Complete your G2 drive test and renew your driver's license. Continue keeping up with school work.

Secondary goals: Continue applying to jobs, continue therapy. Start going to the gym again.

March

Priority: Continue working on school work. Continue going to the gym.

Secondary goals: Find a new hobby to enjoy. Learn to enjoy the little things.

April

Priority: By now, I wish to have secured a job for when I graduate. Again, continue working on school work and going to the gym.

Secondary goals: Start planning how I will go about this new job and what I will need for it, such as the money necessary to move to the location of the job.

May

Priority: Complete final exams for your final semester. Continue going to the gym.

Secondary goals: Start setting things up for the new job ahead.

June

Priority: Graduate from university and obtain your Bachelor's of Science.

Secondary goals: Execute your plan for the new job.

I will continue documenting how my life goes and the progress made on these goals in this blog. For anyone reading this, thank you for listening. I hope you will be with me through this metamorphosis of myself.