Day 10: The start of a new arc

Well, the first day didn't go as planned. However, it did allow me to learn more about my bad habits and what causes me to fail. For one, the night before, I tend to think: "What's stopping me from sleeping in tomorrow", and this leads to me not sleeping early and instead scrolling on my phone. The second thing I noticed is that on mornings like these, where I don't want to get out of bed and I feel very depressed, the first thing I do is stare at my phone, looking at Discord messages and my emails. This is not good as it immediately makes me start thinking about how I can't find a job, and about video games or whatever other leisurely activities I do with my friends on Discord. Even just typing about it now makes me think of it, so what I should probably do is simple: don't look at my phone until a few hours after the morning. Also, stop looking at the phone at night, and find another activity to do during that time.

For now, just focus on the tasks I have at hand. There's my school courses, my part-time job and the gym. And of course this blog and working on my sleep schedule and daily habits. Listing it out, I do find that I downplay my responsibilities in my head, this is already enough. Although I failed to go through with my plan today, at least I was able to notice my bad habits and be aware of how they are causing me to spiral.

I'm going to my first pottery class tomorrow, as a way to relax and use my hands more than my brain. I'll let you know how it goes, hopefully I can also sleep well tonight and not spend time procrastinating my work. Good luck tomorrow, Pirooz.